jz prayin that i delight in the lord..forever..
school is scaring me really..
alot..
jz coz i havent started..jz coz i dunno how bad it will be..jz oz i dunno how much im gonna overload myyself..
1.studies 2.worship min 3.jym 4.part time job 5.exercise n my own leisure activities like wushu 6.cca? 7.frens?
jz thinkin of it is enuf to give me a migraine..
i love worshiping…
i love being in church..
startin to wonder again wat direction it might take me..
but then…looking at ti makes me realise rest is NOT included into the picture..
3 years of travelin back n forth
lookin forward to a fruitful relationship with some1..
time passin like it has a deadline to meet
but being rich due to special ppl in my life
struggling with life
struggling with life with god beside me
mmm…only god n time can tell…my daddy in heaven..i beseech u..let not my old habits take over..let not my human nature crowd u out..let not my overcrowded mind drown ur sweet soft voice..i may never haf heard u personally..i have seen n felt ur wonders..i know its silly to ask coz uv blessed me so..but..yes i do want to hear u father…
let my relatiionship with hu not only be about wat i do..n wat u do..but for it to be the walk with u..for me to becomin pleasing not for myself ,my parents,my future spouse,the world..BUT…for U…
amen
Father in heaven, i pray that you will always be with us. That we shall not only be receptive but obedient to overcome temptation, and to always keep you in our hearts, minds and spirit, so that our focus will not be on worldly things but on you Lord. I pray that you give us strength and the drive to glorify your name. I love you. Amen."
its odd..how its easy to ask for things from god…but
so hard for us to listen to him..
wow..its amazing wat simple little decisions..n dedications can fo to ur entire life..i never realised the severity of making decision until now..it doesnt make 24 hours 25..but it sure makes the way we use them alot clearer..
I had a very enjoyble day ytdy..with someone special n hoping he will remind special for ’sometime’…if god wills it..
At the moment m jz trying to make sure i put god in the midst of everything i do..in every little decision…sounds easier said than done..
we tend to forget our focus as we amble/RUN through life at a high speed..(singapore’s kiasuism is partly to blame)..but then,its again up to us..to decide..m hoping that this month will pass quickly n that i will settle down into a groove..haha kinda getting sick of not knowing wat will be thrown at me week after week..its funny,but routine is quite relaxing after a while(unless ur mugging)
GAMBATE>>to all ppl with exams n school ppl..i shall once again be joining the rat race ranks..so sad..but unavoidable..
in the meantime..SOMEONE PLZ REMIND ME TO DO MY MEMORY VERSES:P
Thank u god..for bringin
sunchine into my life recently..it comes with its shadows..
but it helps that sunshine makes shadows disappear slowly..there will always be the dark places n times..but thank you for bringing that sunshine…
it may be for a lil while..i hope it will last..butm grateful again that u kow wat i need..
jeremiah 29:12- 13..may it be truly n fully..my heart..
Thank u god..for bringin
sunchine into my life recently..it comes with its shadows..
but it helps that sunshine makes shadows disappear slowly..there will always be the dark places n times..but thank you for bringing that sunshine…
it may be for a lil while..i hope it will last..butm grateful again that u kow wat i need..
jeremiah 29:12- 13..may it be truly n fully..my heart..
had an interesting experience today..
i had a structured well almost structured bible study today..with a wonderful lady named felicia..its funny..as usual how god brings ppl into ur lives..good or bad..depending on perspective and how you not only let them change ur l ife but u affect theirs.
M now sitting(at work) in the pe office of TJC(my old junior college)..snackin..using free net n listenin to music..for those who m wonderin WAT im workin as,lets jz say im employered to jz be here in case something happens..its funny how the world works n if u have the connections the luck n the opportunity u can lead a pretty easy life..
but back to it..felicia n me haf ALOT of similiarities which i would not have seen by jz knowing her on a week in out basis.We went through the same experiences(despite her experience being about 10 years ago)..N its comforting to see that the end result can be a happy one..
For those who actually read these ramblings..i thank you for being a part of my life..to those who i haf neglected i apologize..for those that still r close to me..i love u..a love that transcends from god..
p.s:1 john 4 has wonderful verses..
run..swim..work..sleep..eat…
sounds like a good routine to me..n yet..things have been flickin in n out of life..like a light..sometimes i feel that i should try to fix the bulb..
how do we know wat is the right frequency to shine…should we shine green blue or yellow?im grateful that i know im blessed with all colours..yet…is it b etter to be a floodlight?or a rainbow?
i guess gods plan is something we shall spend years searching for..
right now..im torn in 2 in more than one way..the head, heart..n inner self..is sometimes super hard to reconcile..
the end of the century